if you ever believe this is what you need, it will spin around and shatter throw you to the floor and leaves us in the cold.
do people get pleasure in hurting me? sometimes i think i have this really big bubble above my head saying 'please come into my life make me fall for you then break my heart leaving'. well. leaving me all alone empty is fine, but just dont come back. why do they always have to come back, make your life more complicated than it already is? do people get pleasure in creeping into my heart then leaving so abruptly? what are people thinking! i dont need all this really. i was doing fine, fine without feeling so much for someone. fine when the friends were there. fine when i was free to do what i wanted. fine after 2 fucking months of lonliness and heartache. fine after i had to pick myself up all over again. fine after i finally got over mr heartbreaker. fine when all i wanted to do was to have fun. fine when we were just friends. very fine and very happy mind you.
and FYI, i am NOT emotionally unstable, and i didnt need anyone to lean on. i just fell into something i knew i shouldnt have.
and i thought god made it sure that lightning never struck twice.
yours truly
